God Blessed Me with 2 Broken Hearts

God Blessed Me with 2 Broken Hearts - Anchor Of Promise

They came from orphanages in a far off land. For one child, the back and forth motion helped stimulate her physical and emotional being as if she was rocking to the beat of a song. She cried after each 3 bottled meals a day at 9 months: One bottle of chicken broth, one bottle of tea, and lastly a bottle of bread floating in water.

There were twenty-five to thirty children per worker in a room who hardly touched them other than to change their soiled cloth diapers.  This was the most attention they received for the entire day. After laying in the diaper for hours and hours, they would be stripped and rinsed off in ice cold water and left with what looked like cigarette burns below their waist and onto their bottoms from the dirty clothes.

Her sister at 27 months old, didn’t know any language or even how to crawl or walk. Tears would flow after every meal given to her. Her fears of not knowing if she would get more food frightened her and would cause her to hoard and steal if necessary. Continue reading

Abandoned and Rejected

Abandoned and Rejected - Anchor Of Promise

He was abandoned and rejected. Others despised him. Many didn’t understand him. Some thought he was crazy while others thought he did things for shock value. No matter what the thought was, he wasn’t wanted.

What many didn’t know about him was how much he cared and loved little children, especially the orphaned. He cared about the widowed and the poor. He had a compassion for others that were truly hurting. He could identify with those who were called names and those considered the outcast.

He wasn’t a teenager. He was Jesus.

Tomorrow we celebrate Easter and the new life that was given to all who want it. I never really appreciated what I had until I understood all that God did for me. I wasn’t orphaned or poor. I’m not a widow. I wasn’t always in crisis, but I was very sad and alone. Nothing I tried seem to lift me out of my own despair. There wasn’t really any hope in my life.

Today however is a very different story. I’m full of hope, love and serving. Why? Because when I finally gave up and said I couldn’t do it anymore, that’s when God said He could and changed my life.

So when you reflect upon the real meaning of Easter and what Christ did on the cross for you, then you start to realize that someone else was hurting more than you, yet willing to give it all for you. Even in death He gave life. And because of that life, I can now reach out to others who are hurting and helpless and give them hope that was given to me. And I can tell you, I have seen MANY lives changed, all ages, given a new life and peace that wasn’t there before.

So take the time to ponder all that was given for you as you enjoy this Easter weekend and remember to spread the hope to others. Happy Easter!

I’m Mature Enough!

I'm Mature Enough - Anchor Of Promise

Oh those dreaded words. Why on earth did I encourage my teens by telling them how mature they have gotten? What was I thinking? Oh yes, we as parents want to encourage our teens and letting them know how they have grown and matured, however, those words will backfire on you one day.

Teens today use your own words right back at you and this is one of them. Don’t get me wrong. I love to encourage my girls and see them exceed in ways that will build their character and self-esteem. I believe every parent has that desire to see their teen excel and be on their own more. Continue reading

Relating To Your Teen

Relating To Your Teen - Anchor Of Promise

You’re always hearing those words, “You just don’t understand!” And then you, the parent, will say in return, “In my day…” or “I remember when…”

How many of you have done this? I know I have. However, I have come to learn that although we have some similarities, there are some very large contrasts when it comes to comparing our teen years.

So, where are we when it comes to similarities? To name a few; Alcoholism, drugs, abuse, bullying, sexual promiscuity and suicide are topics that very much has crossed the borders in both of our generations. What is vastly different between the two dimensions are the societal changes and behavior from back then to today. Continue reading

You didn’t say that right!

You Didn't Say That Right! - Anchor Of Promise

I asked my daughters the other day if I have ever said anything to them to make them feel inferior, stupid, insecure, dumb or worthless.  Thankfully their answer was no.  However, I cannot same the same for other teens that I know.  The words of their parents didn’t fall on deaf ears but listening ones.  And because of those words, they now live with such pain and hurt and rejection by the very ones who were supposed to love, comfort and protect.

When I was a young girl of about 8 or 9 years of age, we would all sit around the dinner table, eat, converse, and go about our way.  However, I started to notice something that would happen around that dinner table.  Whenever I would speak, my mother would correct me.  If I said the sentence in the wrong way, she repeated the sentence and said that I needed to say it more properly.  If I said a word incorrectly, she would again bring correction by telling me that I didn’t say it right.  This happened a lot.  My brother and father were never corrected, only me.  So I began to think that I was dumb or stupid.

As the years went by I started to feel very insecure about myself . All I ever wanted from my parents, especially my mother was validation and approval.  Things had gotten so bad that I looked for that validation through other people, especially the wrong people.  After making costly mistakes in my life, I tried to make an effort of educating myself in different areas of my life and making a promise that when I had children, I would not do to them what was done to me.

But even 30 years later, that insecurity was still permeating throughout my life until recently when I was confronted about this by someone close to me.  Needless to say, I went back to my mother and finally had the guts to tell her how I have felt all these years.

Surprisingly, after talking with my mother, I found that I had misunderstood what she was trying to do.  You see, she felt insecure and rejected and worthless too when she was growing up.  She didn’t want what happened to her to happen to me.  So she tried to make every effort to make me better than her.  She thought in her mind that by correcting me, she was educating me so that I could feel good about myself.  Unfortunately the opposite happened.

So that leaves us with the question, “What message am I sending to my teen?”

Many years ago I knew a woman who had adopted two children.  In her own misery of life, she chose to pick one child as her favorite and reject the other.  She would tell one child that she loved them.  She would say nothing to the other while in the same room.  She would hug and comfort her favorite child and then walk away from the other or say, “Go away.”

Now you may think that the favorite child is happy and got their mother’s attention and everything they wanted which was true to an extent.  You may also think the other child probably had a rough life and mixed up.  Well, you would be half right.  You see, the mother lost both children in a divorce as they were growing up.  The favorite grew up and realized with maturity that their mother was playing favorites and they didn’t like how their sibling was being treated. In fact, it infuriated them and they chose to not want a relationship with their mother.

The other child was out of control, ran away and did self-harm along with attempts of suicide.  The father in this story loved both of his children very much and tried to care for the children, but in the end the rejected teen wanted to be validated so badly by the mother that they made a decision that was shocking to everyone.  That teen chose to go and live with the very person that rejected them in the first place.

As of today, part of that family is in counseling.  Hopefully those teens will find peace and healing through help, time and leaning on God’s promises of hope for them.  And to think, it all started from words that you should never say.

I have come to learn through my own process that no one can validate me.  The only one that can is God alone.  He created me and knows me and has a purpose for me.  He has accepted me right where I’m at; bruised, broken, hurt, pained and with no judgment.  He waits patiently for me to turn to His comfort, support and love.  What He gives you, you cannot get anywhere else.  He can heal like no other.  He can love like no other.  He can accept like no other.  He just wants us to come to Him.

There is a quote by Oswald Chambers that reads:

Leave the broken, irreversible past in God’s hands, and step out into the invincible future with Him. 

So hug your teen today, speak encouraging words and how you love them just as they are, and pray for them.  They need it!